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Hurt
04:29
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I hurt myself, and I made the hole even bigger.
I'm focused on relief, but the wounds grow deeper.
I don't know what I am, but I'm trying.
Take it away till I have nothing left.
I will die alone, and I will be forgotten.
My bones are aching.
Put me out of my misery.
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Afraid
04:58
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I'm just afraid of growing up.
I don't really know where to go from here.
I was never taught how to cope with death.
I've lost faith in myself.
I've lost everyone that I've loved.
I've contemplated suicide just to see the other side.
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Weak
03:50
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Everything I see reminds me of you.
I wish I could have withered away with you.
My heart can't take anymore abuse.
I'd starve myself again if it meant being able to see you again.
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Beaten
04:44
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Beaten from birth and abandoned ; left behind like my father.
You saw me feeble, you saw me weak.
You hit me.
I no longer see loneliness.
I'm staring at it.
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Love
04:17
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The sound of your voice is like the wind on the first day of Autumn.
I have never felt so free.
Stay with me.
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Alone
05:21
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Don't mind me ; I just get lonely.
Being in company only makes it worse.
I've stayed alone longer than you've known.
So let it be ; If I make it out
Remind me of who I used to be.
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Numb
06:56
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I grow cold and my eyes wont shut.
Five years and my hands are still numb like that night.
Still sleepless ; still cold
I am ready to come home.
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Feel
07:35
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No longer numb from the pain.
My eyes are growing heavy.
There is no god above.
No devil below.
I find myself shaking back and fourth from the pain.
I feel.
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Give
04:40
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I'd be lying if I said I didn't think about you.
I gave and left everything ; I let you take it all.
I'm dead to you.
"I miss you" ; the three words I'm used to.
I let you take it all, but I'm dead to you.
I don't want it back, just leave me with some dignity.
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Regret
06:18
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I've been feeling sad again
I regret everything that I said
I cried the whole way home
I wish I could
Forget that night
Bury it deep inside my head
I won't sleep tonight
I hope and pray that you do
I hope you do.
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11. |
Miss
05:08
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Covered in dirt ; The tree still moves in the breeze
I slowly remember the pain I felt on that day
I felt alone, I felt weak
I fell ; broken and torn
I finally had the courage
But saying goodbye is the hardest
I broke down
I wish you were here
I wish it were me.
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Carl Gene Baltimore, Maryland
"Smith is very open about using the music as a conduit for dealing with his depression, but the gentle nature of the music and the melody coming from Smith’s voice create a healing narrative that take the ugly and force it out of the shadows."
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